I love this man, its like the biggest incentive not to mess up and to learn from your mistakes. Me, like most, have done some things that we aren't so proud of...and even wish we could forget. But that doesn't happen. No matter how much you drink, how many blunts you blaze, how much sex you have, or any other unhealty outlet of pain you might be into, you can never change what happened. So what do you do? Learn, remember what you did and stay away from that. I wish I listened a little closer to my own advice...but yea
Not so long ago, I was faced with a decision to do something I knew I shouldn't. Something I had done in my past and regreted. Temptation is so hard to ignore...and honestly I dont know how I held. I guess I am way stronger then I once thought (only if I was a better planner). I put myself in a bad situation and wanted someone to save me...bad idea. I am a believer in God, and I know he gives us chances...but after all that has happened I think I'm wearing mine out. I can't keep being the helpless child, I am (suppose to be) an adult and I realize that they mess up too but they work to stay out of trouble (I say that with no pride). Trouble follows me like a stray puppy, and catches up like a lion on the hunt. All I can do now is think and play smart(ter).
God, I know what you want...but give me time, please. I'm not ready for what you have for me yet. Build me up so I can be what you want. I'm scared and you know that, but fear, as well as pain, should never stop you from doing you job. (MSgt Webster)
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