She is...90210

“She will do anything for everything.” 90210 by Wale

Sooooo Wale’s new album just came out. I will be honest and say that I haven’t listened to a lot of his music, but most of what I have heard was enjoyable. Today was the release of his album and a lot of down talking was going on about it, so I decided to go ahead and judge for myself. I went to I-tunes and listen to a clip. I didn’t know which song to pick (16 tracks btw) so I just clicked on number 7.

“And she throws up whatever she eats, she leave the bathroom with a nose bleed. Regular girl/celebrity dreams she is…90210.”

The song is all about sex, the “look”, money, fame, drugs, and dreams.

Again, I’m going to sound stupid, but I almost cried while listening to this song. Sadly, it gave me a very scary glimpse into a part of my own life. I have never been the most honest about what goes on with me. I deal with the problems of my friends and family (I’m dealing with one as I write this) and just kind of leave mine to solve themselves. I still won’t be specific about my issues (I don’t feel like being judged) but I want to be clear that I was going about things ALL wrong. I am a strong believer that for any achievement to mean anything you have to go through some pain and sacrifice. Yet you have to have limits, without them you don’t know where you will end up. Chasing your dreams is one of the most important things, but what are you willing to do to catch them? Hurt your body? Hurt your mind? Lose yourself? Who you are is important, but who you want to become is probably more important. Be sure, and be careful. Things can turn so bad so fast, simple phrases like “I’m not scared, let me try”, “Just one more drink” or “I’ll just do it once” are the worst. That one time can become the first of many. And if (and I do mean if) you make it back from whatever crazy trouble or addiction you’ve acquired know this: you will never be the same.

Change is good. But when you find yourself looking out a window at a scary thin/red eyed/dirty/almost scary looking person who keeps mimicking your every move and then you realize… that window is a mirror…and that person is you…you’ve gone too far.

Find help, because if you don’t know you who else will? (God always will, but your friends and family might see a stranger)